Saturday, December 22, 2012

Open your eyes

God has shown me so much in this journey:

-His love for me is not based on what I can or cannot do
-He desires to serve me
-He wants to care for me
-He wants to provide for me
-He wants to be my everything
-He wants me to delight in Him
-He wants me to sing of His love forever
-He wants me to trust in Him {even when I can't see}
-He wants me to rest in Him

There are so many other things I am sure God wants to show me, but these are a few things He's opened my eyes to.  He has also shown me that even though I am off work for a season and am sometimes too weak to partake in Church or social events, I very much have a part in contributing to the Body of Christ; prayer.

But I need to tread cautiously here.  I am very guilty of finding fufillment in Ministry, not Christ.  I'm a doer and that is part of the reason I believe the Lord is breaking me down.  He needs to show me the hard way that I cannot earn His love and I cannot find my value and worth in anything but Him.

This is a challenging lesson for me.  I love to serve others, but I need to sit back and ask the Lord: "Why?"
"What are my intentions?"
"Are they pure?"

I don't want to speculate, as I don't know what God is doing, but I sense this may be a season where God desires my words to be few and that I sit and listen at His feet.


Bethany said...

You're amazing. Seriously, Amanda, you continue to amaze and inspire me and just make me want to be a Godly woman like you.

amanda marvin said...

Thanks for the comment love, and I know in my hard heart that I am no where close to where I want to be with God, I feel a gap...more like a mountain btw us, but it doesn't change the fact that He is there. I love that even when I am unfaithful, He remains faithful to me {cue "Oh how He loves us" by David Crowder}. Ps. I MISS YOU! What I would not give for a tea date ;)