So today was spent in Toronto in hopes of answers on my neck.
Well all I can say is its not nerve damage, I'm not fond of the neurologist I saw and we are back to square one trying to figure out what is going on with my neck.
In the meantime I am booking an appt with my family doctor to see if I can get a referral to Toronto Movement Disorder Clinic and taking a homeopathic remedy called Causticum. So far, the remedy has helped with the spasms (less frequent and less painful ;).
As for the emotional side, I'm still processing.
What I do know, is that at one point this evening I really felt The Lord preparing my heart to say "Lord if this be my portion, let me bring you honour and glory in it."