I have alot of these. Its the time where my brain gets a chance to process all the things that have happened over the course of the week or day.
One thing that was pressed on my heart tonight was a desire to be reconciled to a close friend of mine. To which you may think "Wow, that's great!" and you're right it is, when that person wants to be reconciled to you.
When they don't, it's a horrible feeling. If you are anything like me you start asking yourself what you did wrong a thousand times, kicking yourself for the decisions you've made and so on. All while feeling alone, hurt, angry, sad and a whole other slew of emotions.
The reason I am sharing this is not for pity {but I hope someone can relate and we can bless each other in that}, but also as to know that there is someone else who has felt every single one of these emotions I just listed. Jesus Christ.
I thought to myself tonight, that when God was on pursuit of us and how He felt when we rejected Him and nailed Him to the cross and mocked Him. I can't even imagine the pain He felt. I don't even think pain is the word to describe it.
I am blessed to have Jesus.
I am thankful He endured the Cross for me.
Now I'll never have to experience separation from my Father. I may have to on earth, because we live in a fallen world, but in the meanwhile I am going to continue hoping and praying for reconciliation.
Join me?
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